Ok, so it's a bit of both, I guess.
When my easel was new it was all clean and pristine, now 4 years later look at the mess I've made with my drips, splatters, drops, whoopsies and oopsies. It's a good thing I have a large drop cloth under there and yes it's a mess too. LOL 😄
As a person I'm also a bit of a mess. I have some health issues both physical and mental. I try not to dwell on them but they do get in the way sometimes. Also worth noting when going slightly mental I have tendencies toward rhymes.
I chalk the rhyming up to the mental circus, like the OCD, social anxiety, impostor syndrome, yup I'm nutz and it's OK. 😇 Physically, I have early onset arthritis developing in my hands. I also have some pretty serious vitamin deficiencies that cause uncontrollable numbness and muscle twitches at times. 😏
So, yeah my arts and crafts are challenging for me and my photos almost always suck. I have taken all the photo advice, I got a better camera, I got a tripod, I have banks of lights, I have solid clean backgrounds, I've tried natural light next to a window, I've tried colored backgrounds instead of white, I have multiple versions of editing software. I do my best but accept that "my best" is still not that great. 😕
Self acceptance a.k.a. acknowledging I am a work in progress 😇
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